in love

"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love"- Albert Einstien

Again I fall in love. It has been a while since I fall in love so deep. I can't remember the last time I fall in love. But in my world, I was the only one that was in love. Never I thought all the attention and time I've spent for her would make the tiny heart of her to change its thought. In the end, I was the only actor in the movie.

I accidentally know her few days back. We only have clashes our sight few times, ok that was a lie. We haven't met actually but from far i look at her, i knew she would be mine. Her sparkling round eyes, her soft body, and her low profile appearance. All in a good package. How I wish I can tell her the truth, how I wish i can expose my inner though, of course the good ones to her without blushing. How i wish we can share time together. How I wish I can say "i love you" dead on without sending lovish messages.

Im in love.

Samyang 14mm f/2.8 Manual focus

Yeah, it's another typical DSLR/ lens love story. Sorry to disappoint you guys. Or you relieved? hehe. The new lens that caught my attention. It fast(optically), it's good quality and the best thing it is affordable!

As for now, sorry guys I'm not falling in love with someone. but since you did drop by, i can say this, i like someone buttttt just a like-like things only :)

She maybe not into you

courtesy: Google

Maybe? Such a strong word. It's an intermediate between two thing, right or wrong, a yes or a no. Maybe could spark thousands perception of something.

****

She started to message me, out of the blue moon, with the text message sounds "Gudnight :D" that I received in the middle of yesterday night. I smiled instantly. Normally people does not do that out of the sudden. Usually a good night reminder will be on the last page of the conversation, never in the start.

Later in the morning I sent a "Goodmorning :)" text message, as a token for her kindness for the message last night. We chat for some time. Even in my Academic Writing class, which I happen to be selected as class rep. (darn)

I do think she started to open some part of her heart for me, but maybe, just maybe. I don't know, you figure it yourself. Sometime I like to daydream, thinking that maybe, she like me but never shown it, but that was all made up of a cotton candy dream.

I do hope we can still chat with each other, even during these fasting month. I hope there are a lot of things that we can talk about. I miss her voice, her laugh, her giggle, I miss her.


tskkkkkkkk. Running nose. damn.

What if : Love story were crap

What if,

All those love story are fake? Made by highly imagination and sense of romance of the director itself.

What if

Hot, nice, attractive, caring, (any good values that you prefer) girl that you interested or having crush on is having a serious relationship?

What if

Real life love story is dull?

What if

There are not a slight chance of having a head on collision and guts to ask her name while collecting all the papers and books?

What if

someone that you like, prefer to stay single.

What if

I suck in relationship?

Uncertainty. It's normal. It's sometimes full of crap. Frankly, Love are crap, crap stuff. Crap stuff that makes you all craving for it like a Sun in an important day.

Crap.

What if

I can't forget about her even though she doesn't even look at me?

perfect!

Yesterday.

7.00 p.m.

Finish my Engineering Drawing class. Lecturer, he's okay. Nice but his session could be a little dry sometimes.

7.17 p.m.

She text me. After months of disappearance in my life. Not a single text message, let along a call. "Hye What's up" appear on my cell screen. If I had eyes of a girl I think I'll might shed some tear of joy and jump off dancing around like those SNSD babe. But no, i did not. But somewhere bottom in my heart, I'm thankful.

We talk, although no voice involved in the process. She complaint to me, how life is boring. Studies surround her life. That is normal for higher learning students nevertheless. I had experience that too. You do to I guess. It's been a while she share something, in fact it has been a while people share their thought/problem with me. And I find myself into the "Listener chair" again playing as Mr. Counselor.


We talk, up until midnight. Even in my Robotic class which I learn 3D modeling using Autodesk Inventor. Get back to that later on. The text message earlier on somewhat acts as a trigger. Trigger to my old memories. She remind me on how life is great back then, how I love her, how I care about her, how I tried my best to give a good answer. Those time were perfect. Perfect for me.

When I finally have time to went to sleep, A though came to me, shit.

I still in love with her :/

miss you when you gone

In my life i've only fall in love once, until I enter university. Since then I changed from a very quite boy to someone that is well known (that doesn't sound like a jerk right?). I had more girl friends that I ever had before, more friends that I can actually talk to, chat to, hang around together. And that makes me in no position to be in love. You know, i just love the attention, I wouldn't want to mess it with a relationship, a serious one.


But after a while, some people leave, some new one coming. When I think back, I do have fallen to someone, but I never realize about it, until, yeah, they are gone. The same case happen when I was in form 4. Until the last moment that she wanted to leave then I realize, I do like her. It's like karma all over again. And I hate that part about myself.


Maybe this is my problem. I can't confess. I always waited, thinking that when time will come everything will fall over in just the way I wanted. But these 2 experience have though me that NO. Never ignore, and if you have time, always make full use of it. Let her know. Doesn't matter what she think of you, because if she don't accept you, at least you can have more time to yourself to repair.


I think after this I will be more honest to myself, to my feeling. I don't want it to hide anymore, if it have to i will do my best to hide it. If it something good about another person, then I would express myself. And for the love that I have for the two person back, I will still hold on that, but if you did not try and so do I.

because of that, Do appreciate people around you before it's too late. Peace :)